You can love with your whole heart, give in abundance, encourage, forgive, embrace, and still be pushed away, disregarded, and ignored. We all know that. We aren’t ever guaranteed that our love will be accepted and returned, but we love anyway, take the risk, and hope with all our hearts for a good outcome.
I know that “we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.” (Ephesians 6:12) Sometimes in the midst of my hurt, I can feel the cold darkness against which I battle. Harsh words, haughty looks, refusal to engage…all of this reeks of the enemy’s character. Yet, a heart that desires truth and peace, love, goodness, and unity hurts all the same even knowing from where the trouble in relationships originate.
I hear my heart’s cry so often, “come, let us reason together, we will do you no harm, love is kind and gentle, not boastful…” yet silence is the reply and I have to continue to hope and to trust.
I am as human as anyone and my feelings get hurt and I get angry, but then I find myself again on bended knee asking God again for His protection and provision on the very one that wearies me so…is that not love, mother-love no less, a love that is never-ending, always hoping, seeking, waiting in eager expectation for the best?
No matter my hurt, no matter how long , I will hope…knowing that God answers, that He has answered, and I will take comfort in that.
I love to think of the scripture from Isaiah 55:7, “Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts: and let him return unto the Lord, and he will have mercy upon him; and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon.” Abundant mercy is continually extended while time and life remains.
How I long for us to all live mercifully and in kindness and love toward one another. It just breaks me when I see so much unnecessary hurt. Those things that we cannot avoid, well we just have to face, but so much sorrow in this world is chosen and does not have to be…those are the sorrows that I find most difficult to bear.
Another scripture that is always close to my heart is Psalm 34:8, “O taste and see that the Lord is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in Him.” I’ve prayed for others to truly taste and see that indeed the Lord is good and He is faithful to show forth His mercies again and again so that those who will come to Him will know this for themselves, yet how many turn Him away again and again? The sorrow of that knowledge is never too far from my thoughts.
If only the law of love ruled in our hearts, minds and lives, God would be honored, we would be blessed, and peace would be plenty. May we ever draw closer to Him, trusting in His tender mercies regardless of the storms we face.