This heart and mind of mine will ponder…
So many things I want to understand, to understand based on what is meaningful and true. Yet what I see often reveals a truth that is hard to bear. I can’t believe that people don’t know better than to make the many devastating choices that are made over and over again.
Following a path of dishonesty, lack of responsibility, carelessness quickly reveals the consequence, the heartache, and the ugliness that results. Yet, again and again, some choose to walk that particular path. I am a person who cares, who longs for wisdom, for good fruit, for meaningful, faithful life, so when I see others choosing foolishness and deceit, I am overwhelmed with sorrow. Why?
I realize that people have different desires, different goals, but I can’t wrap my mind around anyone not wanting peace instead of strife, safety instead of danger, love instead of hate, honesty instead of deceit. I don’t get it…
There are scriptures that comfort me and there are scriptures that trouble me. Because I want to know truth, I must take to heart all of what God’s Word tells me, not just those things that are gentle, hopeful, and encouraging. Let me make clear right here that I truly believe that God is ALWAYS RIGHT, always just, always good, yet…He is God. He is righteous in ALL His ways. So when I say some of the scriptures are troubling I’m simply clarifying that I understand all people will not have a good end, not because God isn’t good, but because many, MANY, will choose to ignore Him as God and choose instead to be their own God.
I love the scripture in Joshua 24:15 that gives us his declaration, “…but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.” Before making his proclamation, he said to a group of people, “choose you this day whom you will serve.” The choice is daily, even after we come to know the Lord, each and every day we must determine whether or not we will serve Him. Until the final breath of life, we are faced with a choice as to whom we will serve.
One of the troubling scriptures I mentioned earlier is Romans 1:28-32 which tells us, “…as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient; being filled with all unrighteousness, fornication, wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, murder, debate, deceit, malignity whisperers, backbiters, haters of God, despiteful, proud, boasters, inventors of evil things, disobedient to parents, without understanding, covenant-breakers, without natural affection, implacable, unmerciful: who knowing the judgement of God, that they which commit such things are worthy of death, not only do the same, but have pleasure in them that do them.” Now…might we pluck out any one of these offenses to measure it against the others and find the danger of being caught up in even the one? I believe we ought. They go together, one leading to the next, taking down one life after another as God is rejected for the purpose of feeding self-will.
The heaviness of this truth weighs on me as I witness it in so many young lives. Ignoring the whole counsel of God and instead adopting a false concept of God and His commands is occurring in epidemic proportions throughout our world. He indeed is a God of Love, He proved that when He sent Jesus to bear the sins of the whole world to free us from sin. Here’s the deal…if we are choosing to walk in that sin, we are rejecting the free gift of salvation and are deceiving ourselves if we say we are in Christ. If we are in Christ, then sin that we commit grieves the Holy Spirit that dwells within us causing suffering that will bear out repentance, a turning away from sin.
Another sobering scripture is Psalm 66:18, “If I regard iniquity in my heart, the Lord will not hear me.” I think the vast majority of people think God’s ears are open to all, period. Not so according to the Word of God.
I feel the need to acknowledge and admit that much of my time spent here, making readers privy to my inner thoughts, is a time of grappling with deep concerns common to many but seldom shared because of the painful nature of the topic. Also, I know that I am not alone in this journey. Others surely carry these burdens, thoughts, questions, longings…May we love one another, share our hearts, offer hope and understanding. We are not alone. God is in this endeavor with me, through His Spirit, through His Word, and with His great and abiding Love…
I’ve said before, if righteousness mattered not to me, then I could see all unrighteousness with no hurtful feelings, without a sorrowful heart. But it does…it matters to me above all else. There is a righteous, holy God, who created me, and you. He loves us with an unfailing love, and His heart breaks, too, over the sin that is chosen in place of His gift of righteousness.
I’m a mother and I’m a teacher. We know best by our own experience, yes? When I see my child or a student I’ve taught, doing as I’ve taught them to do, there is a deep sense of satistfaction…I am well-pleased. Yet, when I see one I have taught doing or expressing that which is counter to what I have taught, there is a tightening inside, displeasure, disappointment. I imagine how God must feel, when He created us for a good purpose and He finds us living for another…anguish I’m sure, pure anguish!
So the Lord, He understands better than we do this journey we are taking. His Word offers encouragement beyond measure to those of us who care, who love Him, who love others, who listen and obey HIs Word. Psalm 34:18, “The Lord is near unto them that are of a broken heart; and saves those of a contrite spirit.” Psalm 147:3 He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds.”
May we choose to live for the purpose of honoring the hand that created us and give Him glory with our words and our deeds.