I’ve spent quite a while in the rocking chair this afternoon rocking a sweet baby, singing old hymns, and thinking on things. Amazing how many clear thoughts I can have when I tune the rest of the world out and spend time with a sweet, innocent little one praying, singing, and meditating on the goodness of God. I often feel the gravity of the responsibility we have as saved folks in the lives of those who are placed in our care; how important it is to share the name and truth of Jesus as we go along.
When I was expecting Noah, I sang “Blessed Assurance Jesus is mine…” almost every day while on my way to work. I especially felt such great appreciation as I sang out “this is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long!” I wanted that sweet baby to know from his earliest moments of life what my story is all about and what matters most now and for eternity.
There is no substitute for being still and quiet when it comes to hearing and listening to the Holy Spirit when He speaks. I most often experience conviction in my quiet moments when I’ve turned off all other distractions and sit, willing to hear, willing to know, willing to acknowledge and agree with Him when He brings to light my failings. What of those who don’t experience conviction? Can we surmise they are not sinning? No, we all know we sin, that our very nature is sinful so we must realize that if we are not experiencing conviction it is because we are not taking heed, we are not making time to hear, we are not opening our eyes to see.
One of the most pressing thought processes I’ve had in recent days has been about the need for us all to be willing to see and hear the truth even when it hurts. The big picture, what matters in the long run, is far more important than our feelings in the moment. The moment will flee and what will be measured is whether or not we have grown in the grace and knowledge of the truth that leads to a closer walk with Jesus and the fulfilling of His good and perfect will for our lives. For that to occur, we must be willing to suffer the shame of our sin by recognizing it for what it is and surrender through repentance to the righteousness of God in Christ. What a truly amazing gift that we have been given that we can be redeemed, given new hearts, be filled with the Holy Spirit and become new creatures in Christ Jesus!
I was thinking quite a bit on the notion of being made new creatures in Christ, able to walk by Spirit and not by flesh. I had just been looking at Riley, so innocent and sweet resting there in my arms, and I must admit there are times with him, like with my other two, I’ve wanted to hide him away from the world, from all the sin and harm that is out there. I thought, when looking at the picture of danger and threat of harm in my mind, of the words “could my tears forever flow, Could my zeal no languor know, These for sin could not atone; Thou must save, and Thou alone; In my hand no price I bring, Simply to Thy cross I cling.”
I recognize that my own sin and unrighteousness is just as unworthy of the grace that has been given to me as that of any other so again in thanksgiving and humility I ask for the same salvation for those who are still walking in darkness that is necessary for my own covering; meaning, had the Lord not given me a new heart and filled me with His Spirit, I could have done as much damage and caused the very harm that I now hate. The condition of man apart from God is wretched and that is true for every single one of us.
Oh….life is a challenge and there is so much, ever so much to learn, but because He lives I have hope for all those I love and I place my trust wholly in Him for the lives and souls of these precious little ones that I’m blessed to hold close for these treasured days that I have them near.
Children are such an amazing gift to cherish. Their innocence and wonder, their trust and curiosity are to be nurtured and adored. Having little ones coming into our home again reminds me of when Heather was small and the great joy I had from having her and her little friends here making our home warm and happy. I can hardly believe I’m getting another opportunity for similar blessings now with other little ones. I just can’t say enough to proclaim the abundance of the blessings the Lord has poured out in my life. I’ll stop now by simply saying I am deeply grateful for it all!